I had to run over to Walmart this morning to get some Vitamin C. I have a deficiency, and it’s too expensive at CVS. I found a parking spot in the first row by the doors, score! Their was a display of Vitamin C immediately inside the front entrance, double score! I went to go to the self serve checkouts and immediately regretted it as I noticed the entire section was packed to the gills with lines. On my way I had walked past cashiers with no lines and their lights on, a foreign concept for me. As someone who came of age in the time of self service, I have never ever in my entire life checked out with a cashier on my own unless their were no other options.
I walked back to one of the cashiers and asked if she was open? She asked me how I was doing, I said “good, just that please.” She put my item in the bag, told me my total was $4.32 and said “have a nice day.” before I said “you too, thanks.” as I left.
It’s astonishing that I’ve become so deprived of human connection, that the 30 second interaction with her made my entire day. I had a huge grin on my face as I walked out and am sincerely so elated right now because of it. And for the record, I’m always checking out with cashiers now.
Salty Salutations,
Your Captain, SS
I’m terrified of talking to girls, but I want nothing more then to have a girlfriend. The more attracted I am to them, the more terrifying they become.
I’m 24. I work at the largest community college in my state. I saw a girl the other day when I was walking in. From a distance I loved her long blonde hair and her water bottle with a copy of the painting Starry Night on it. She held the door for me, and then the next one. She looked at me and smiled.
I love Starry Night, I love Van Gogh’s paintings. As I was walking up to her I was thinking I should say, “I like your water bottle by the way. I used to hate his paintings, but then I read his biography a few months ago and it totally changed my mind. Would you like to get coffee sometime?” But I stayed silent and I’ve been regretting it all week.
It would have been so easy I tell myself. This was a perfect opportunity, it fell into my lap and I failed. If I don’t get a girlfriend, or ever get married, or start a family, I’m going to be miserable for the rest of my life. All of these things are things I desire more then anything else on earth. More then traveling, more then having a good job, or going to any museum I could ever think of.
I’ve never been on a date. I’ve never kissed anyone and never had s*x. I’m not abstaining from anything, I wouldn’t hesitate at all to do any or all of these things if given the opportunity.
If you live in the Chicagoland area (I’m close to Naperville), please feel free to reach out through my guestbook. I’d be happy to get in touch. Or if you have any suggestions on how to remedy this situation, please let me know. I know for a lot of guys this is trivial, it should be so easy, but for me it’s not, and I hate myself for it.
Salty Salutations,
Your Captain, SS